VaNeSsA's PlACe!!

.Saturday, September 27, 2008@12:17 AM.

just have the urge to blog..
wanted to blog this for the longest time..
but i just dun noe hw to put it into words..
but now.. i do.. i noe hw and wat im going to say..
i feel soOo inferior beside you all..(im not going to say how many, it might be 1 or alot)
im like.. plz.. im not just de only 1 there..
there's still others..
have a sense of it and just look ard..
i no i can match up to you all..
be it studies or wat.. name whatever.. its just it..
im just like de 1 which is taking in the old shoes of yours if smt happen or wat..
but theres nth i can do..
i just have to take it nth had happen and just act normal..
to be frank..
im already used to it..
it not just once.. but loads of time..
so as time passes.. i just get soOOo used to it..
but thinking back.. why is this always happeing and nt stooping just once and change for a difference..
i guess it different as this is what reality really is..
so i have no choice but just to leave it there and nt touching it of even bothering it..
coz im really sick and tired of it..
so whats the point of even thinking about it..
whats yours is always yours..
nobody can snatch it form you..
you just cant snatch it from others as this is nt yours and it will eventually nt be yours no matter what..
no matter how big a circle you go tru..
if its yours.. it will still come back..
so no point of doing small taticts behind..
coz it might turn out to be a failure or even worse..
understood about smt..
this is just reality i would say..
and i jus noe why..
no explaination is needed..
and im just happy for you..
just dun say and sit there and do nth..
do what u think its right..
actually theres more.. but i dun really feel like saying anymore..
will say it soon if i have the time..
just to conclude..
just concentrate on what ur're doing and dun bother the things ard me..
even if theres a need..
just listen and let the words flow out tru aother ear.. unless the things said are really important..
then we'll just have to remember it..
a stupid ending i would say...

okie..
enough of this..
meet up with my babes just now and had dinner at pastamiana..
as usual..
we had out long talk..
but someone left early..
so when down to the F1 site to see if we could get a glimised if the cars..
and yeah..
we did.. and they were fast..
feelings were undescricble..
you will have to be there so u will noe wat i mean..
excited to see how are they going to run the race here on sun..
guess im gonna glued to my tv on sun..
pics below are just a small portion of ppl who were there trying to get a glimised of it in different ways and style..

ending off with a pic with my babe..

to my babes:thanks for being there when i needed you guys.. hearing wat i wanna say and all..
wanna thank you guys for eveything u had done.. words are undescrible..
to my frends: thanks for being there too..words are undescrible..
take care peeps..
p.s.might MIA a few days..

.Thursday, September 25, 2008@8:30 PM.

here to wish someone a happy bday..
::HAPPY BDAY SCB!!!::
may all ur wishes come true.. dun think too much ar.. u noe wat i mean..
take care and see u soon..

.Tuesday, September 23, 2008@10:48 PM.

this post is delicated to all my frends who had been there for me when im down this few days..
not going to say who are they..
but they should noe..
it wasnt an easy one..
but i still have to do it and move on with it..
with the decision that i've made..
yes.. im sad and i did cried..
but who doesnt..
if you were in my shoes..
u sld noe what i meant.. trying all to work things out..
but its difficult..
had been forcing myself to smile even if i cant..
coz i dun wanna let the peeps ard me get worried for me..
i noe that they will always be there when i needed them and i will tell them my probs if i wanted..
so they nvr forced me when i didnt wanna say..
coz they will noe that i will say out if i wanna say..
so they see that there's no point forcing me into saying it..
feel sad to let go to time..
but time is probably the main issue..
dun wanna let peep wait for a outcome that is nth..
i noe that he dun mind, but i just cant do dat..
this take time for us to heal..
and we shall let time to heal us as i noe it would..
but it going to take time..
how long?? im not sure..
though this is going to be a tough period that im going to go through..
but with the support that i have from my frends..
i noe that im nt going to be alone facing it all by myself..
give me some time and i will try to be back to the old vanessa u've all noe..

.Sunday, September 21, 2008@6:55 PM.

突然很想把整个心情用话语来数说。。我已经做了决定。。而这个决定不直伤了他。。也伤了我。。不要问我为什么。。但我决得我们是输在时间上吧。。我真的有尝试过去安排时间。。但我还是做不到。。我真的不希望你一直等。。这对你来说很不公平。。知道你对我好，所以我不希望这样。。当着个决定做出时，我是伤心得。。谁不会呢??我是人，是有感情的。。虽然在一起不久。。但我是上心得。。不敢跟别人说我哭。。可是我真的有哭。。很想把这件事让自己解决。。让我自己平复自己的心情。。我想信时间能让我们平复心情。。真的很感谢你所对我做的一切。。

.Saturday, September 13, 2008@12:03 AM.

im back..
didnt blog the past few days coz was busy with some stuffs and of coz i was tired..
tired of everything and the hetic schedule at work..
went out with my babes ytd..
more deatils tml when i upload my pics.. coz im abit lazy nw..

was talking to wife the other day and got to noe that she missed me..
actually, i missed her too lahz.. cant really remember hw long we didnt meet le..
and she miss me..
i soOo gan dong can..
and i olso miss my wife lahz and nt foregtting all my frends too..
you guys are missed by me..
been really busy with work dis few days..
so wasnt able to plan and meet u guys up..
but let me noe when..
i will confirm make time provided i dun have to do OT ar..

heard fr wife the other day that she was tired of everything..
actually.. i am too..
im tired.. physically and mentally..
watever tired u guys can think or linked..
dats me right nw..
one word: TIRED!!!
im thinking to turn left or right or just remain there and dun do any single thing...
problems have been rising on and off..
i haven been able to catch a breath or take a rest..
another problem is up..
why do ppl have all this freaking problems and dey cant solve..
and if they cant solve.. they will be miserable and all..
happy olso a day, nt happy olso a day..
so we will have to be happy everyday..
saying is easy.. but doing it?? its freaking difficult..
no matter hw u solve or dun bother the problem..
it will still bother u no matter wat..

talk alot to my bro ytd..
and surprisingly.. he listen to wat i said, not interrupting me or even nag saying that he wanna slp dun disturb me..
to all my frends.. im fine, dun worry about me.. i just need to do smt thinking on my own and i will definately tell u guys what really happen..
its just a matter of time and when..
but given my pattern.. you all will noe i will say out de..
dun worry about me..

till then..

.Sunday, September 07, 2008@6:22 PM.

im finally back to update my blog..
haven been updating recently because there's smt wrong wif my server..
so i had to wait till its repaired then i can blog..
and so here i am..

waring to you guys..
this is gonna be a long entry..
but as usual..
im gonna summaries as short as possible..
provided it can be done..
hahha..

okie.. enough of the intro..
im going to the main point..
so here i go..

firstly, i wanna wish someone a very happy bday!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AILI!!!

hope that u enjoy ur day ytd with the surprise and celebrations we've done for you..

and may all ur wishes come true..

went back to terasaki to visit the indian workers there..

coz had been there for 6 mths le..

so gt gan qing mahz and haven seen them for sometime so we decided to head back..

bought some food for them, bought bananas and cake..

chatted alot with them before heading to coffeeshop to find lao da they all..

and as usual, after lunch, we headed to our usual void deck to sit down and talk..

and really lahz.. they are like the only ppl that can make us laugh non-stop lahz..

and i seriously meant that ar..

if we feel sad or wat, once they start talking, its just laughter everywhere..

and i was laughing till i have no image lor..

laugh till my stomach hurts lahz..

seriously NO IMAGE de lor..

and someone broke his promise AGAIN..

YES AGAIN.. everytime brake his promise de lahz..

he promised us to jump wu gui wu gui tiao from the last day of our attachment till nw he still haven jump..

he's none other then MR LIU HAN WEI ar..

nvm.. we believe still got chance de ar.. hahah..

headed down to jp to get the cake and down to ps to settle the surprises and all..

went to fish and co. 1st before meeting li and left all the presents there..

meet her at the bustop and brought her to the place..

but she didnt ask us where are we taking her and she's not afraid that we're going to sell her off..

she just follow us wherever we walked..

so after dinner, the surprise started..

and what shocked us was that li was ask to stand on the chair holding a fire-craker stick..

me and wife didnt expected that ar..

and we're shocked but we kept laughing..

but though it was a shocking one, its not a bad idea to celebrate ur frends bday there..

coz u really will have loads of fun even though u will feel pai sae after that..

headed down to suntec for the sort of 2nd surprise..

and u noe wat, we blind-folded her and ask her to follow us..

settled down at nydc and gave her a stalk of flower and a monkey keychain..

and the 3 of us have the same keychain..

hahah..

okie..

think i'll stop here and let the pics do the talking..

(note: all pictures courtesy of wife! thanks wife!)

the utensils and menu..

the food..

the shells..

and presenting u the bday gal..

the gals..

went to tpa for the NTUC event..

it was a sucessful one..

as everything went smoothly..

went there very early to help out and settle all the stuffs..

lunched at MOS burger.. after that back to helping out again..

didnt really get to see the whole ceremony as i was busy outside..

and after the event we went flower picking, balloon picking and photo-taking..

and not forgetting the eating session..

the food was gd.. hahha..

headed hme after that..

the flowers, its nice hor..

and the pics taken with my collagues..

(note: all pictures courtesy of silin! thanks silin!)

and yes.. im afraid of mooncakes for now..

coz i had eaten quite alot of mooncake in my office..

and i like the pics below..

the mooncakes are given by our customers..

nice packaging..

and nice mooncakes too..

went to meet my gals one day after my work..

went for dinner and some catching up with my gals..

had dinner at a hong kong cafe at bugis..

the food there is okie ar.. hahha..

the food and drinks..

went starbucks for chatting session before heading hme..

and its photo-taking time again..

okie.. i'll end here.. update again..=))