决定还是靠自己比较好。。
人还是轻里轻未比较好。。
靠人太多也不已定是好事。。
因为。。
决定了事我一定会去做的。。
直能说该做的我一定会做。。
也直想说。。
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现 在眼角。。

最近不懂为什么就是想要用华语来写日记。。
很难得我会用华语来写的。。
应该是头脑的那一个神劲接错了吧。。哈哈。。
最近都真得好累好累。。
几个月前为了某些是烦/难过。。
可是现在除了有其他的原因之外就是功课了。。
最近的功课非常繁重。。压力好大啊。。
每天都没什么睡到。。
但也没办法啊。。
能的话，会尽量早睡得。。
拜五早上约了老婆后，买了pizza后，就去找老大了。。
因为是他的生日。。
所以就买东西到那里吃。。
我们请他们吃。。
而且我们还被他们欺负啊。。
他们都知道我们怕痒。。
所以用了我们的缺点来欺负我们。。
但， 每次我们回去都会很开心得。。
因为他们一定会弄我们笑。。
而我们也能把烦恼和繁重的功课压力战时抛到一边。。
真的很感谢他们。。
旁晚约了老婆和爱丽到了镇发活海鲜吃晚餐。。
还蛮吓到的。。因为排队的人还真多啊。。
可是我们玩的也吃的很开心。。
吃饱后，原本是要看电影的。。
可是没什么好看得电影，所以我们决定去唱歌。。
唱到很high叻。。
有可能是很久没去唱歌了吧。。
三八夫女节过了吗。。
还对三八这个子还蛮开心得。。哈哈。。
对了。。那时跟老婆。。
谁买那支winnie the pooh, pigglet, tigger, eeyore还是很可爱得小熊。。
就是可爱得东西，我一定会爱那个人的。。
而且。。
有人买给我了。。
想知道是谁吗??
她就是我妈妈啊。。
她买了一只很大的winnie the pooh给我。。
thanks mummy..=)
但不管你们有没有送。。
我还是会爱你们的。。真的。。 没骗你们。。
还有。。 我们也买了很多面包。。
因为面包有promotion,所以就买了蛮多。。
那我三餐就吃面包了。。哈哈。。
好了。。就写到这里。。
大家晚安。。=) my winnie the pooh...=) tks mom..the amt of bread..=)

很久没上网写日记了。。
因为最近都在忙很多东西。。
忙也忙不完。。
也没什么时间休息。。

首先想要跟老大说声生日快乐。。
又老了一岁了。。
希望你天天都开心。。

看看现在几点了。。
大多数的人都在睡了吧。。
而我呢， 还在赶功课。。
直能说的是。。
该赶好的功课能算是赶 好了吧。。
但是我还有很多还没做完。。
直能说功课是永远都做不完的。。
我的压力好大啊。。因为考试会要到了。。
不管怎样，我一定要加把练习。。

对了。。上个星期天和老大，阿锋，阿威，大勇和老婆去了马来西亚。。
想跟他们说声谢谢。。
谢谢他们带我们到处走。。 还满好玩的。。
直不过我和老婆都有点累。。因该是我们没睡好吧。。

其实我真的累了。。
精神上，生体上 都累了。。
我也不想去管那么多了。。

期待明天的到来。。
因为好久没跟爱丽和老婆一起出门玩了。。
明天就玩的痛快啊。。
暂时把功课和烦恼炮一边。。
要继续做功课了。。
晚安了。。。

before i start off..
peeps, can help me do a survey on foreign workers..
its a project that im working on now..
thanks a million ya..
heres the link..
http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=65RB0T_2fAdClNkgCe6tvHMg_3d_3d


im stil feeling abit bad ar..
coz wife wanna attend lecture today, but i didnt want to..
so sort of physco her not to go too..
coz u noe why..
we had 5 hrs of break.. actually theres lessons in the middle..
but the lecturer had to attend smt..
so he decided to cancle off.. and so in return..
we had 5hrs of break..
we went out and didnt wanna go back for the 2 hrs lessons..
coz its abit sian ar and just to go back for de 2 hrs and return hme??
its abit waste of time plus sian too ar..
so we skip the lecture..
got people to sign for us.. thanks ya..
but before heading back home..
went to westmall for some arcarde session with wife, zhi wei,soon lee and wei xiang..
brings back loads of memories..
coz its my sort of second hme during my secondary school days..
had fun there palying puzzle bobble coz its been econs since i played that..
and thanks to wife who bring the DS lite..
had fun playing cooking mama and we're just like kids playing that...
went for a talking and checking of prices for our EID before heading for hme..

think wife know that i've been saying that im fianlly out of this shit for tons of time..
but she didnt wanna sort of believe me coz i think she noes that smt is going to happen to me??
or sld i say the both of us..
and just recently..
im saying that again..
im glad that im out of this shit and im happy over it..
but as usual..
she dun really think so..
untill today..
she finally see smt and she decided to sort of believe it..
had been thinking bout this not only once..
but tons of times..
i just feel that im like a wooden block place infront of them..
trying to help them without fail if they needed my help..
but i olso noe that i like soOO "freaking extra" there..
and the feeling is NOT GOOD...
but i olso noe that if i dun help her..
she might not know what to do and what her nxt move..
coz i noe her too well..
i may sound that im soOo "wei da" here..
but im just trying to help in whatever i can or whatever is needed of me..
i decided to take a step back a long time ago..
but.. theres always smt crop up in the middle..
im just going to let them settle everything themselves..
im not goin to do anything but just to sit down and watch..
and wife..
u sld noe what i mean..
if there is anything u still can tell me..
i will try to help.. (u noe what am i saying de)

to you if u are reading or not..
dis part is for you..
决定把这一段有华语来诉说。。
不管你是否会看还是不会看。。
可是我直想说的就是。。
我终于可以不管这些事了。。
我很早就说我已经拖里这个苦海了什么事都不用管了。。
但我也不能放她一个人在那里不懂要怎样做。。
该转左还是转右。。
我相信她也不知道该怎样做还是怎样去面对。。
我也能做的直有尽量的帮她。。
有时有决的我有点怪怪的。。
就是不因该站在你们的中间。。
有点像你们助爱得东西。。
如果让你决的什么的话。。
在这里跟你说生对不起。。

thinking alot recently..
wife said im crazy today and i told her..
okie.. den i just go back to the past me before im okie..
as in people would wanna beat me with de tired face that i have..
coz when im freaking tired..
i will have the kiam pa face..
as i said, had been thinking alot recently..
some things may had been resolved but it will still always be there..
i sld MIA a while..
settle all the feelings, putting them back where they sld be and i will be back..
but no worries..
the crazy vanessa is back..
just that..
if u guys wanna find me, u can find me in school..
coz i will still be attending lesson..
take care peeps..
this blog might be in peace for a while until im back..
VANESSA IS GOING TO MIA...
take care..=)

*edited*
in school blogging now..
had a dream last night and slept ard 2am plus and woke up at ard 3am plus feeling shocked..
though i felt shocked..
but i had see it coming.. so i wasnt surprised when i see that..
and i felt soOO relief out of a sudden though i woke up in schocked..
a kind of relief that all i wanted to have after all this..
was smiling to myself when i went back to slp..
was smiling too when my mom woke me up in the morning asking me what time is my school..
coz i dun like ppl waking me up soOo early just to ask that..
but i was feeling fine not angry whatso ever..
if that really happen..
i will give them the blessing..
all the blessing that all i wanted to give i will give it to them..
so i noe that they deserved it..
good luck peeps..
my blessing will be given to u with no regrets..=)

她们每次都在。。。
a sentence or words that i didnt expected to hear..
but i did..
and just after the sentence was said..
there's soOo many things running tru my mind..
okie.. i'll set aside that coz its tough to say what is it..
so i'll just skip that and talk about others..

went for dinner with scb..
think its been a long time since we sat down and have some "proper" meal..
not say that we didnt eat any thing..
but its just that we treated ourselves some gd food, coz its been a long time since we had dat as a duo..
went coffee club located at marina square..
love the ambience there, coz there is a fountain..
and it's just soOo nice..
after ordering the food..
we talk loads of stuffs..
happy,crazy stuffs and AGAIN laughing like nobody business..
headed hme after that coz we're both tired..
think this is proberly the first time we went hme soOo early bahz..
coz normally we go out, we dount go hme soOO early de lor..
but dis time we abit fan chang ar..

ytd.. went out with mummy in the morning before meeting jy at bugis..
and mummy ask me a funny thing in the morning..
how come u wake up sOo early when u slept soOo late de last nite..
i told her.. i dun noe lehz.. cant slp lehz..
infact i just slept for 2 hrs and i woke up to have breakfast lor..
headed to bugis coz jy wanna buy smt..
and i bought smt too..
i bought a skellton jacket..=)
but she was the wan that had a shopping spree ar..
went to watch coffin..
and it turns out to be BAD.. and i meant that..
nt scary and nt worth watching..
dun have a story line, no head and no tail..
sld have watched saw(V) instead..
it might be loads better than coffin..
still have some other movies to watch like MSH3, Saw(V) etc..
need to see when i have the time to watch it..
coz had been really busy recently with school work and finding a job..
and i need a job badly..
headed hme after that..
and guess we're both soOo tired that we dozed off in the bus..

went clubbing with the gang on friday..
coz its halloween night and actually they plan to dress up to scare..
but turns out that we didnt.. coz this was soOo last min plan and so we didnt dressed up..
went st james and ***a*(guess urself bahz..)
as usual.. we were playing all those nonsense games and the loser will have to drink..
but turns out to be that..
even you're not the loser.. u still have to drink lor..
was "guan" by them ar..
or i sld say we all "guan" each other..
left there ard 4am plus, thus reaching hme at 5am plus..
only slept 2 hrs before heading out(as said in the above entry)

alright, heres the pics..
was cam -worping as usual..


the lovely fountain..

coffee club..




the foodie and drinks..
chilli flakes and tobcao sauce is a must when i have my pasta..
i put loads of those..
peeps will be scared of it coz it will taste too hot..
but to me.. without it??
just like smt missing..
back to doing my stuffs..
and i need a job badly..
take care peeps...=)

{The Gal}

Name:Vanessa
Bday:23-05-1987
Sch:PeIyInG PrImArY ScH(1994-1999),QuEeNsWaY SeCoNdARy ScH(2000-2004),NgEe AnN PoLy[ElEcTrIcIaL EnGiNeErInG](2006-??)
Email:vanessa_energy@yahoo.com

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Her Friends!!
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Xiao Zhu!!
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Wakeing up early in the morning!!
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Do well in exams!!
Slim Down!!
Have more clothes!!
Going Overseas for holidays!!
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